At a cross road.....

"Patience"

by Sarah Ferguson

(for more see: http://www.sarahbaingallery.com/ferguson_page.htm)

Currently....well lately....I feel as though I am torn in two directions, at the fork in the road. At this time, either direction will mean making a decision that will be of some significance. Neither choice is giving me a clear glimpse of what lies ahead nor do I know which is right for this very moment. I assume if I knew either one of those then I wouldn't find myself where I am today. I have been continually praying for guidance and direction concerning him, but I always find myself right back to where I am. To wait or to go on without him. Neither choice is promising a better position than the other, nor a better tomorrow; yet anything is better than where I am today. For once I don't doubt the words he has said to me, what a surprise for someone such as myself who's trust in others is always questioned. I don't believe that he has thrown his words around.

Though I find it humorous how things work out; you find something you are interested in you and the feelings are mutual but the timing is all wrong. Why do things happen like that? Am I the only one?

Inside I always knew you were worth the wait
You always reassured me of where you stood
Reminding me that now was not the time
The words you spoke always were my peace of mind
Yet somewhere in the midst of patience I lost my way
Caught between what I feel for you and what is right
It is hard to know what the future holds
If this wait is nothing more than a girl standing at a dead end
Or a stop sign along the great journey with the road prepared for us both
I put my trust in God
Knowing only He holds the key
My hope is grounded in His perfect plan for me

Fortune Cookies

I had nice lunch today from House of Taipi, Black Peppered Beef, whether or not it was beef is not my place to say but it was sure yummy. As I was putting my fortune cookie fortune into my victoria secret box (I'm a pack rat), I realized "hmm...this would be good blog, sharing some fortune cookie fortunes". And though it may not seem interesting to you (you don't have to continue reading this no one is forcing you) I just figured it would be better if I posted something. I think part of the reason I haven't been so persistent about writing is because I'm not as open as I have been in the past. I've really been keeping to myself these days, and everything that goes on in my life. Of course I indulge those who I trust, but these days the count is few. If you who are (still) reading this are that interested about the detials of whats going on in my life, just ask, there is no harm in asking. Too many people these days act as though you can place so much trust in them with the intention of betraying exactly that. Why share myself when it is just going to come back and bite me in the rear? I'd rather keep to myself than to have others take MY PERSONAL life upon themselves to share with others.
Okay, back to the fortune cookies in my Vicki mints box; I'm going to share them with you now. Though not all of them are that insightful, there are many of them that are quite humorous. And of course on the back of every good fortune is "Learn chinese" and the infamous "lucky numbers".

• It is better to have a hen tomorrow than an egg today.
• Your emotional nature is strong and sensitive.
• Whatever arrangements you make are apt to be final.
• You have a keen sense of humor and love a good time.
• You have a lively family.
• You are magnetic.
• Your love life will be happy and harmonious.
• The important thing is to express yourself.
• Nothing in the world is accomplished without passion.
• You'll accomplish more if you start now.
• You are almost there.
• Be yourself, and you will always be in fashion.
• The smart thing is to prepare for the unexpected.
• Use your charm and personality to your advantage.
• Things are not always what they seem.
• It is quanity that matters. Do a good job.
• Others find your charm irresistible.
• Your planning will bring rich rewards.
• He who takes notes listens well.
• A new voyage will fill your life with untold memories.
• If you are still hungry, have another fortune cookie.
• Relax and enjoy yourself.
• Learning is a treasure which accompanies us everywhere.

Lake Norman during the fall.

(I don't take credit for taking this picture)

What a beautiful time of year it is. Though I'm not one for the cold weather and I will soon be complaining about being TOO cold, I have Florida blood what can I say! I do enjoy watching the seasons change, one of the many pleasures of living further up north. Its just wonderful to see the wind blow the leaves from trees as though it is raining the colors of fall.

I had such a wonderful weekend. Simple. Just how I like it, spending it with people I care about. Friday, I went to get my portraits taken--my mom's idea for Christmas gifts for the relatives. They turned out okay I guess. When I got home, I just decided not to go out, I like having one calm day just at home, without any hustle and bustle. So I stayed home and watched two movies with my mom. We watched Veronica Guerin,which I highly recommend. Loved it! Then we watched The Day After Tomorrow; which was another movie I really enjoyed, except it kinda scared me, the reality of...Though that was "hollywodized". Once again I recommend it. Afterwards I hit the sack, not going to bed very early but I did sleep in till 11:00; which to some of you may not seem very late but since I started working at the church it has been rather hard for me to sleep in. I have a natural alarm clock go off in my head, which drives me nuts because I'm not a morning person at ALL, for everyone who knows me I'm such a night owl--no matter how early I may have to get up in the morning. I didn't do a lot during the day, but Saturday night a group of us (not all of us--those who weren't there were definitely missed!) went to Campground Massacre in South Carolina (one exit after Carowinds, so it wasn't too bad of a drive--about 45 mins). The one time my brother comes to hang out with us it is too a haunted trail and none of the guys end up coming, so it ended up being Katie, Michelle, Sarah, Ryan (my brother), and myself. Let me just tell you this trail was worth the $17 and my gas money down there, MAN WAS I SCARED! Afterwards we decided to go back to Katies--but first we had to get everyone's cars--Katie's car was at Wendy's and Michelle's was at the church. We get back to the church and some people from the worship ministry are up there finished from unpacking some equipment and are jumping on the trampolins for the Fly Fling for Sunday night's Fall Festival. And since Lee (our worship pastor) was jumping on it I figured hey we can't get in trouble. So we joined it. Jumping on trampoline is so much fun, I haven't done that in forever, but a real workout I got tired quick...just proves how out of shape I am. We finally made it back to Katie & Irene's place, where we watched the STUPIDEST scary movie in history--Dark Harvest--this movie is low-budget independent film, in which I do NOT recommend, unless you want a good laugh. Irene, Alex and Andrew joined us to watch the movie; later Matt & Nathan showed up after the UNC-Miami game (where the Cranes got their butts kicked).
Sunday was another wonderful day--wonderful weather for Oct. 31st! Church was awesome--which it always is. My favorite place to be! After worship at CCC I met up with my family at Olive Garden and ate lunch with them, my brother's friend, Kevin, and the Johnson family. Then I went home and took a well deserved nap. I love naps. That night was the fall festival. Which was so much fun, I wasn't planning on dressing up but I figured hey its Halloween why not?! But last minute deciding to dress up means last minute costume...but I just decided to be a cowgirl. Tight jeans. Plaid shirt. Pig tails. Cowboy hat. Had it all in my room, how great is that? I had a good time. Ran the Jonah booth at 7:00 - 7:30 which meant that I missed the Easystreet Showcase, but thats alright, it gave others the opportunity to see it. Though I got preoccupied, and completly forgot about getting on the Fly Fling--thats alright I'll take being preoccupied over the Fly Fling any day. So overall I would say I had a pretty darn good weekend. :)